There was a time

There was a time
When I could speak my mind
Say what I wanted, how I wanted
Knowing in my heart
That you wouldn't mind
That you would forgive me
If I said something wrong

Today I think twice before I speak
And when I say some things out loud
I wonder, should I not have said them
Did I hurt you?
Will you understand, forgive?
I always worry.
And I never get it right.

Today, I wonder, is there a barrier?
We share less, we meet less
We understand less of each other
We are too formal sometimes
A little uncomfortable

You still are close to my heart
I still care for you deeply
Although I show it very differently
I still hope you understand
I know you still care for me
And I know we are still friends.